The journey is still going on

The reason why I am still away from my dreams is because of my laziness, my procrastination, no motivation. So finally I am back after wasting more than 2 months, started my journey of million dreams, but has lost my way, was distracted, within these 2 months, I dreamed for Google but haven’t worked a single day for it, I dreamed of owning a bungalow but haven’t worked a single day for it, have dreamed of owning a healthy life but haven’t worked for it a single day. 2 months have gone like a blink of an eye where I was sleeping, watching youtube videos, wasting time on Instagram, almost doing nothing except a bit of office work which was given to me, though that too not giving my 100% to it. The reason might be I felt like I have already achieved my dreams but, no that is not true, the reason might be I thought my dreams are too easy to be achieved. Maybe they are too easy to be achieved still I have to work for it, and have not worked even a single day on any of these things.

The trouble is you think you have time. But actually, 1 year is going to pass by soon, and only 3 months left, If I wasn't able to utilize the 9 months of this year how can I do something big in these 3 months. Many thoughts going on, but I seriously need a win to show my self, to achieve something big at least I can showcase to myself what I achieved in this year. At this moment I am not proud of myself, but I want to be proud of myself after completing these 3 months.

Bigger dreams still lie in my eyes, and from today onward I have started this journey again, don’t know if I am on right track or not, but have to work, can’t sit idle waiting for the opportunities to come and go. I have missed almost all the opportunities which I have received this year, just because I wasn’t prepared, so when I will feel prepared have to think of it.

Coming 90 days, starting from today are going to be the best days of this year, where I will utilize each and every millisecond of time left for this year. Within 2 months i.e 6 days, I will make myself prepare for the interview. For the first month, I will cover all the topics of data structure and design patterns and system design, from the start of November I will start applying to jobs. And I am hopeful I will get one soon.

Practice Practice Practice. All I have to do is practice.

Happy ComeBack!!!